Saturday, January 24, 2009

Because you're near me

I always got random thoughts and memories going through my mind. I use to contemplate about things more back in the day. I use to read so many book and watch so many movies. I think about moments in life…

I think a lot of people think of love, and they think of a lifetime commitment. I know people who think of love like this, and it scares them. How long will I live? How long will he live? How long will my love last? How long will his love last? Will I change? Will he change? How can I know how I’ll feel about him years from now? How can I know how he’ll feel about me years from now? I tend to look at things different…

I remember watching my first Wong Kar-Wai movie, Ashes of Time. It’s horrible that there isn’t a single decent copy of that movie around. The video quality of every version available is so bad that it really takes a determined viewer to finish that movie. It’s almost like watching the static on a tv channel that is blocked. On top of that if you don’t speak Cantonese, you’ll be stuck using subtitles which either take up half the screen or are in white color text that blend in with the background. Back then, however, I always finished a movie I started. I almost didn’t finish that movie. It was such a confusing movie with so many flashbacks too. Then in the last couple of minutes, everything came together. I always look back to that movie. So many lines and moments about life that really made me think about things in a different way. There is this one line, “Love isn’t a lifetime commitment. Love is spending the best moments of your life with the one you love.”

I thought about that line a lot. I not saying I don’t believe in a lifetime commitment. I’m saying love is about spending the best moments of your life with the one you love. It’s not about forever, but spending forever together. Spending the moments together. It’s not worrying how long we’ll live, but enjoying everyday you got together. We may never live these moments in life again, but we’ll never forget this moments. For these moments, no matter how fleeting or eternal are moments that define a lifetime. It’s not about being sad about the day one of us will pass away but being happy that we’re here together today. Life isn’t about the past for the past has gone. Life isn’t about the future for the future has not come yet. It’s about the present. Only in this moment can you live life. Only in this moment can you enjoy love. Live this moment and this moment will become our future. It’s simply because you are near that I feel love, and that makes me happy.

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